Flying model rockets.

It’s been one of those days. It’s been one of those weekends really. One where I came home and went to bed because I didn’t wanna talk to or hear anybody. I want to sleep for days and days and just dream. Because dreams are better than my reality right now. Issues with a friend have got me reeling. I don’t think there’s anything else I can do to try and fix the situation. So I wait. I am determined, however. Determined to never let anyone make me feel like I should regret any part of my life. Because I don’t regret any of it. Everything I’ve done has shaped who I am. It’s like that with everyone. I may not know where I’m headed but I sure as hell know I’m happy with where I am. That’s important to me. I firmly believe everything happens for a reason. Where I am and what I’ve done are just small parts of whatever journey I may be on. I trust God with that. With my future. With whatever’s going to happen. Because there’s not much else that makes sense. Faith is something I value and it’s a part of me that isn’t going anywhere. I trust in Him to help me to make my future one worth living. Everything happens for a reason. That’s all there is to it.

throwaway-yourtelevision:

nice people = my kind of people

It’s nights like tonight that I can’t ever decide. Nights like tonight when I just don’t know what to think… I just don’t know what to DO anymore. Am I an idiot? Naive? is everything around me obvious to everyone BUT me? Is every issue I have easily solved by someone else? Anyone else? Am I the only one that has problems like this? Problems forgetting everything and dropping people that mean the world to you? I would think that’d be hard for anyone but some people suggest it like it’s nothing. I DON’T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK TO DO. I wish someone could step into my life for a day. My emotions my thoughts my relationships my situations… Everything. And then step back out and tell me what they think. If only!! And until someone can give me an opinion that is based on my feelings and thoughts and relationships and EVERYTHING of mine, I continue to be confused. Continue to wonder. Continue, possibly, to be naive. Continue to be happy most of the time… But upset a lot too. Continue living.. I guess that’s what they call it.. Living.

Because how could you be lonely when you’re surrounded by such lovely people.

I am more than proud to have such beautiful people in my life. It’s weird to think that just a year ago, nothing was the same. And the things I’ve been told recently have absolutely warmed my heart and made me so happy. It’s made me realize that I have incredible and genuine people in my life and I never want to lose them.

My best friend is one of the most beautiful people I know. Her heart is always in the right place and she always has everyone’s best interests in mind. There are some things we don’t necessarily agree on, as there are with all best friends, but she’s overcome that. It’s an incredible feeling to have someone that you know loves you enough to get past something that bothers them. It’s a beautiful thing to experience a friendship like that. Personally I hadn’t ever experienced one, and I was scared to tell her what I eventually did. The outcome of things, however, couldn’t have been better.

Here’s to you. You know who you are and you know what you’ve done. I want you to know how much you mean to me. I’ve never had a friend like you and you are my absolute bestfriend. You understand me in every aspect of the word and I have absolutely no idea what I would do without you. I love you, and always will. And I hope you know that no matter what, I will always support you. I value your thoughts and opinions more than you know and I’m so proud to call you my bestfriend. You are incredible in all that you are, don’t let anyone tell you differently.